I really wish I wasn't sick. Not seeing the outside world really dampens my spirit. I miss my friends, a lot of them are already going back to school and I've maybe seen them like once because I've been sick. Missed New Years and other events, which was probably the thing that has gotten me the saddest. Nobody likes to feel like they've missed out on things. All I do all day is get up, lie in bed, watch TV, sleep, and drink Sprite and water, and also go on my computer. Getting people to cover my shifts at work really sucks ass, I hate it so much. I know there's nothing I can do and "I shouldn't feel sorry for myself" but it's just so depressing, not to mention painful. Each cough hurts so bad. Doc said it lasts at least 3 weeks, if not more. This was supposed to be my time off to enjoy myself...and there's been little to no enjoyment so far :( It's just really frustrating to me. I can sense myself getting better but I just have to keep resting or else it will flare up again.
On the bright side...I've watched the entire 9 seasons of America's Next Top Model. No lie. Tyra's nuts.
Also...so weird...there was a very slim possibility of me going up to Sac next month...which of course didn't work out but I thought it was very odd. It's funny how people are.
Well, off to use my inhaler...I've never had one so it vaguely excites me to use it :)
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disappointed